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ivybgreenflower) wrote2004-03-12 10:11 pm
ivybgreenflower) wrote2004-03-12 10:11 pm
It's just another day. Doo doo doo doo doo doo, it's just another day.
Today was pretty crappy. I was fried and just plain blah.
I have to study a lot this weekend which is just plain crap as far as I'm concerned... the only class that seems to be going okay is Algebra, amazingly enough. Well, History is ok, but it doesn't count since we have the study sessions. I hate them with a passion but I will go because I did not destroy my nervous system this year and last year to fail the AP test.
I flew off the handlebar for nothing again today and my father doesn't help by telling me I look like a moron while I'm in an inconsolable rage. I'm just so sick of living like this... like what? With my nerves stretched to a breaking point every waking moment. I'm tired of getting acid reflux, tired of getting a stomachache when I eat cheese, tired of my back and arms being sore every day, I'm so sick of crying and I'm so sick of slamming doors.
I'm thinking of putting myself through a detox-type thingie. I'll give up make-up and underwires and Beatles and just... exsist. I'll stop wearing jewelry and stop obessessing and we'll see what happens.
Oh God. I think I'm turning Amish.
i <3 the amish
I guess this weekend I'll work on my research paper a little and I'll bury my head in my physics book and I'll definitely be reading Glencoe crap and I'll try to read the history chapters. Key word- try.
I guess that means no more nightly piano practice. Or Harry Potter readings. Sigh.
See you tomorrow night. Or not. I may give up the internet too.
I already gave up phones, what the hell, I'll just give up modern technology all together and read physics by candle light.
Ivyette @ 10:10 PM
I have to study a lot this weekend which is just plain crap as far as I'm concerned... the only class that seems to be going okay is Algebra, amazingly enough. Well, History is ok, but it doesn't count since we have the study sessions. I hate them with a passion but I will go because I did not destroy my nervous system this year and last year to fail the AP test.
I flew off the handlebar for nothing again today and my father doesn't help by telling me I look like a moron while I'm in an inconsolable rage. I'm just so sick of living like this... like what? With my nerves stretched to a breaking point every waking moment. I'm tired of getting acid reflux, tired of getting a stomachache when I eat cheese, tired of my back and arms being sore every day, I'm so sick of crying and I'm so sick of slamming doors.
I'm thinking of putting myself through a detox-type thingie. I'll give up make-up and underwires and Beatles and just... exsist. I'll stop wearing jewelry and stop obessessing and we'll see what happens.
Oh God. I think I'm turning Amish.
i <3 the amish
I guess this weekend I'll work on my research paper a little and I'll bury my head in my physics book and I'll definitely be reading Glencoe crap and I'll try to read the history chapters. Key word- try.
I guess that means no more nightly piano practice. Or Harry Potter readings. Sigh.
See you tomorrow night. Or not. I may give up the internet too.
I already gave up phones, what the hell, I'll just give up modern technology all together and read physics by candle light.
Ivyette @ 10:10 PM
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But how can you give up all of your favorite things? I desperately hope this is simply momentary insanity.
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Ivy
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It's there because... it's the right thing to do.
Ivyette