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ivybgreenflower) wrote2004-03-07 08:27 pm
ivybgreenflower) wrote2004-03-07 08:27 pm
You are the One- Life Itself. Or not.
Lalalalalala. So today I cooked meatloaf and a veggie pot pie and some cake thing that looks like a pancake... well... my mom and I cooked. Whatever.
I was bored.
I started reading the book Bianca's making me read and while it isn't bad, the people annoy the hell out of me. Not the main characters, the friends and such. I already read the ending since I'm the type who cries at endings so I wouldn't cry when I got to it. Because I am so sick of crying.
I suppose I'm here to write about how today, March 7th is the one year anniversary of my uncle's death.
I've started thinking about how much I've changed since then, and I guess I haven't, really. For the first time I really don't feel like I've changed at all. I feel like everyone else has changed but not me. I still feel the same way about everyone and about myself. I guess I must have changed, but not really a lot, because I haven't noticed. I haven't even grown. I haven't gained or lost weight.
I have the terrible feeling I'm going to be exactly the same for the rest of my life.
Which doesn't make me feel any better at all.
I have a headache.
I'm here to write some research paper stuff, but Bianca isn't on because no one is ever around when I want them so I doubt how much I'll get done. I've been in a state of panic about this research paper since it was assigned and that doesn't make writing it any easier.
Ugh, this entry was so pointless it hurts.
One more thing- if you post an lj entry and no one comments, does that mean it never existed?
Ponder that.
Ivy @ 8:37 PM
I was bored.
I started reading the book Bianca's making me read and while it isn't bad, the people annoy the hell out of me. Not the main characters, the friends and such. I already read the ending since I'm the type who cries at endings so I wouldn't cry when I got to it. Because I am so sick of crying.
I suppose I'm here to write about how today, March 7th is the one year anniversary of my uncle's death.
I've started thinking about how much I've changed since then, and I guess I haven't, really. For the first time I really don't feel like I've changed at all. I feel like everyone else has changed but not me. I still feel the same way about everyone and about myself. I guess I must have changed, but not really a lot, because I haven't noticed. I haven't even grown. I haven't gained or lost weight.
I have the terrible feeling I'm going to be exactly the same for the rest of my life.
Which doesn't make me feel any better at all.
I have a headache.
I'm here to write some research paper stuff, but Bianca isn't on because no one is ever around when I want them so I doubt how much I'll get done. I've been in a state of panic about this research paper since it was assigned and that doesn't make writing it any easier.
Ugh, this entry was so pointless it hurts.
One more thing- if you post an lj entry and no one comments, does that mean it never existed?
Ponder that.
Ivy @ 8:37 PM
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I think Wednesday is going to be an all-nighter. Maybe. Because scrambling to finish everything the night before is the right thing to do. Except I have dance until 9:30 which makes everything all weird...whatever..talk to you about it tomorrow.
I don't think you've changed much either. But maybe that's a good thing.
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You'd better be on tonight though :P At least this is only the rough draft... just think... when it's actually due... we may not have to pull an all-nighter! Whoohoo! What now! Hey now! Worrrrd! Remix! Break it down now....
...fostai.
And yeah, I think it IS a good thing I haven't changed much, I kinda like myself the way I am.
Ivyette